Today’s unseasonably warm
weather reminded me of a beautiful moment.
FROM MY
NOTES 3/15/05
As I walked west on 19th St.
in front of my house, on one of the warmest Spring days in SF history, I slowed to
watch a beautiful butterfly--a painted lady--it flew up and slowly lit on my
left hand--stunned--I just watched and held my hand perfectly still. After a
time, it gently dropped to the warm sidewalk--maybe to catch some of the last
warmth of the day. I watched for a long time and then turned up the slightly
curving staircase to my front door. I could barely see to put the brass key
into the lock--tears filled my eyes and sped down my cheeks. An angel? A
departed spirit? I thought of the line from my love poem, Paradox,
Certainty
emerging
from
passion
Constancy
woven
of desire,
fantasy, hope
Catching
time as it flows
missing its
immediacy
Intricate
contingencies of love
cannot bear
stasis
Unsure waft
of a butterfly’s passing
as real as
death
Sadly, I did not have a photo of the painted lady (vanessa cardui), but love this photo from another Spring.